In a Chocolate Covered Nutshell:

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Hi, my name is Carolyn. I’m a chocoholic—always will be.   I like to cook, bake, decorate and I home educate—my children. All I need today is a little bit of chocolate and a whole lot of Jesus!

Snapshots of my life:

  • I was born and raised the first fourteen years of life in north central Iowa followed by a move to Oklahoma where I finished out my high school years in, Stillwater, home of the Oklahoma State Cowboys; go Pokes!
  • My childhood and the teen years: Some good, some fun, and some difficult; much from my own rebelliousness.
  • I went off to a Christian college in Joplin, Missouri. There is more to this snapshot—much more…off the deep end. Crazy.  Hard. Impossible. Some of this is covered under, ‘Toxic Tuesday’ posts.
  • As an adult I have lived all over the place; Oklahoma, Kansas, Missouri, Colorado, Texas and Georgia. I have called Missouri home—again for the last fourteen years.
  • Farm Boy (my husband) and I live in a St. Louis, MO suburb with our three blessings; our college age daughter Riley, and middle school age sons A.J. and Colson.
  • Praying my way through our son’s severe traumatic brain injury.
  • Marriage, child rearing, difficult relationships. Life—it keeps me on my knees.

Life has been hard over the years but God has always remained faithful and good.

Here is the creative spin I put on my life as a mom:

  1. I customize an education for children of different ages, learning styles, needs and interests.
  2. Research analyst in childhood development with special emphasis on: psychology, learning disabilities and traumatic brain injury rehabilitation. (See #1)
  3. Researcher and participant in practical application for: Thriving despite difficult circumstances. (See #2)

The only reason I am passionate about the above is because I desire for my children to become everything God has created them to be; for His purpose, His glory, and their good.

May all three be found loving the Lord with all their heart, soul, mind and strength; and found loving and serving others.

I blog about:

  • My prayer life; God’s leading and His answers.
  • Toxic relationships. Just because we are Christians does not mean we have to be walked all over, verbally shredded, emotionally manipulated, physically harmed, sexually abused or  backed in the corner by those suffering from mental illness who refuse to seek help and healing, by those who refuse to deal with their personality disorder, or by those who refuse to turn from their messed up choices. Boundaries are necessary. Safety is achievable. Love is essential.
  • Do It Yourself home projects and service projects.  Creative and a bit artsy I can be when a need arises.
  • Occasional chocolate or Tex-Mex recipes since these are my favorite foods. Maybe I should say were…since I recently switched to an auto-immune protocol life style for auto-immune diseases. I’m quickly learning to adjust these recipes for my specific needs.

~Enjoy. Be encouraged. Be empowered. Be on your knees in prayer. Then—be blessed; in good times, in despair and everything in between.

Carolyn

 

23 thoughts on “In a Chocolate Covered Nutshell:

  1. Thank you for this blog. I am slowly reading through, and finding it to helpful and relevant to this stage of my life. Appreciate it so much! I found it when you posted the warning about your daughter’s experience with a potential stalker. It was definitely of God that I found you!

    Here’s a tip: Aldi chocolate is the *best*! It is European chocolate at Aldi prices. Can’t beat that! If you’ve tried it, you know what I mean. If you haven’t, whatcha waitin’ for? 😉

    Blessings!

  2. Hey Carolyn, thanks for being a blessing. I found out about you through your email to SCCHE. We will perhaps meet there. I’m a new member and have two boys that I home school. We are winding down to our last couple of years together.

    I look forward to checking out more of your blog and you can check out mine if you like.

    God bless and keep up the good work.

  3. Elizabeth says:

    I’m very glad God led me to your blog. The Toxic Tues. articles and relationship articles as well as other resources/links have been extremely helpful to me. Thank you!

    • My pleasure, and thanks for stopping by my blog. I’m glad you are finding helpful information.
      I am always thankful beyond words when God allows my past pain to be used for His purpose. He loves us sooo much! Blessings…

  4. cathy cummings says:

    Hello dear friend! Giving God much praise after perusing this wonderful blog. Though I have no formal degree, I seem to connect sometimes with hurting women who open up to me on the job. So thankful I thought of you to direct them to and I plan to visit you here as well. Your experience, wisdom, info and lovely spirit are a rich gift to the reader! God bless you! Thanks for the encouragement for the journey!

    • Cathy, Thank you for the kind words. I’m grateful to be helpful to hurting women as I know it is a difficult road to walk and I don’t want them to walk it alone; neither does God. Thank you for listening to these women God has placed in your life. ~Blessings!

  5. Paula Temple (Colorado) says:

    Carolyn, been reading your articles for sometime. You are a real inspiration, I knew you in a past life and praise God for your strength. You have and are in my prayers.

    • Paula, thank you for the kind words and prayers. I have thought of you many times over the years and wondered how you were doing. I’m so glad you dropped me a note. I’ll private message you!

  6. Sallie says:

    Hello Carolyn
    I so appreciate your messages – I am from West St. Louis county, suffered through a 30-year abusive marriage, escaped, re-located to S Carolina 2 1/2 years ago. My husband passed away two years ago, so I am no longer dealing with that. I too knew of the Messers throughout my 17 years of homeschooling our 3 children.
    In SC the domestic violence statistics are among the highest in the country. I am committed to finding ways to equip the church with ways to address this. I was one of those women who tried to get help from the church, and was given terrible advice, not believed, and even slandered and ignored.
    A female pastor here asked me today if I knew of anyone who could speak on the subject. I immediately thought of you – do you ever speak to groups?

  7. Vic says:

    Hello Maam!

    Chanced upon your blog. I don’t think it was a fluke, as I was in dire desperation for answers from the Lord.

    You would be shocked that as man I have been going through an abuse that cannt be put in words. I married her thinking she was a christian cuz she projected like one. The world or for that matter the Church wouldnt believe a word of mine had I told them that I was being mentally and emotionally and physically abused and tortured by this woman, and that me and my 3-year-old son are at grave danger from this emotionally and mentally unstable woman. She abuses my 3-year-old son in the name of biblical disciple. Has been doing that since he was a 6-month old baby slapping the back of his palm cuz he used to suck his thumb. He lives in fear and dread of her day in and day out. She has a great reputation in the local church. No one would believe me.

    I did try to bring up this issue of emotional and mental abuse to a few “christians” who without even letting me finish my sentence would shut me down with a holy brimstome and wrath of God from heaven sermon and tell me that God hates divorce and that no matter what I should keep loving her and that my love will win her over. i was being blamed cuz i was a man and that a woman would not commit such a atrocity. She screams at the top of her voice and fights at 1:30 am and breaks things at home. Says she cares a damn for anyone. Also says it doesnt matter when i tell her to talk peaceful cuz my son gets stunned and stiff and scared of her beyond abnormal screaming.

    You article was God sent! A breath of fresh air. Given me a ray of hope that what I am facing is abnormal and that I need to take legal action against this woman.

    God bless her abdundantly. You have no clue how much your article has helped. A real life saver. saved me and my son.

    Yes even men go through such abuse beyond descripiton.

    Would be great to hear from you and reply to you.

    In Christ,
    Vic

    • Vic says:

      ..just to add…i was beaten, bruised, scratched by her..apart from being called various profanities in full public view..and I happen to live in a third-world country where the women have more rights to the kid than the father…no matter how abusive she is..its gonna take the hand of the Lord and His mercy to miraculously deliver me from this manipulator and grant me my son’s sole custody so that I would bring him up in line with love of God and the Word of God.i really fear for the safety and well being of my son..

      • Vic, Yes, men can also be the abused and I’m saddened to read of what you and your son are living through. I’m not a professional, but I believe you need to seek professional help and bypass the church at this time. You need a paper trail to support you in court. If you have something like Domestic Violence or an abuse shelter you need to go there and tell them your story. They should know of someone to interview your child also. A child psychologist needs to see your son as soon as possible so play therapy can hopefully reveal the abuse your son is suffering. Go to the police or legal authority and ask to fill our a report, ask them who you should talk to. In America you can locate victim witness coordinators at the District Attorney’s office of each county and at the state level with the Attorney General’s office. If you can, find a licensed counselor/psychologist whose testimony will hold up in a court of law, and begin telling your story. Better yet, if you are still with your wife, try your best to get her to go to counseling with you. I don’t recommend joint counseling with your abuser, but…I do recommend allowing a counselor the opportunity to see how she justifies or explains away her reasoning for the abusive treatment. If your wife achieves getting the counselor to see everything from her point of view then she has managed to deceive the counselor and you’ll need to not go back to that person. It is legally your responsibility to call the police and report child abuse. If you have something like Family Protective Services or Child Protective Services, they also need to be contacted and your wife needs to be reported. They will hopefully investigate the allegations. In America, if your spouse is reported for child abuse, the non-offending spouse has to keep the child away from the abuser or the child will be removed from the home by the authorities. I have no idea your country of origin or its law. “For God did not give us a Spirit of fear; but of power, and love, and a sound mind.” 2 Timothy 1:7. You are strong and you will make it through with God’s help. Stay in God’s word, and pray, pray , pray. Find scriptures that speak to you in this situation and pray them out loud over you and your son. “For the word of God is alive and active and sharper than any double-edged sword, piercing even to the point of dividing soul from spirit, and joints from marrow; it is able to judge the desires and thoughts of the heart.” Hebrews 4:12. For more help in the middle of this abusive relationship go to Youtube.com and watch counseling videos by Patrick Doyle and Leslie Vernick. The videos by Patrick Doyle, “Emotional Abuse” and “Recognize and Prevent Emotional Abuse” would be terrific tools for your church leadership to watch to they can become educated on abuse that is taking place in the church.

      • If you live in a country where you have none of the above offices for receiving help; you will need your church. In that case; hopefully, the Patrick Doyle videos will help them see the extent of a wide spread problem of abuse taking place in the homes of many church members.

      • I also want to add that in cases like this; if you know the law will not protect the child and that divorce would end in the child living with the abusive parent, divorce may not be the best option. If you can learn to set healthy boundaries, staying in the relationship may be the only way you can protect the child. Without you, there will be no protection from verbal, emotional and physical abuse which could leave the child feeling alone, abandoned and helpless. This is a matter of prayer and wise counsel.

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